doki doki tomaranai..nya~~~

just got my induction letter 5 minutes ago...

and ooo-em-geeeeeeee i m sooo freaking out..huwaaaaaa

i m freaking scared about entering the ooo-so-BIG adult world
and the thought of being scolded by MO/specialist/consultants scares me like hell..huhu
*please please God let them be kind & patient to blurry me..aishh*

but the thought of earning my own money...*muka tamak* hopefully is a good enough motivation
though i do want to be a good & safe doctor..that is as long as i plan to practice..
haiyaaaa...i m having tachycardia already

k la malas nk pk dh...lg pk lg tachycardia
going to maen game or watch gundam or any other anime *while i still can*
eh jap kn carik baju kurung puteh kaen hitam plk..damn~
*btw maggggggggg if u are reading this my sister ckp miracle train crtr merepek..sob sob..*

so dear darlingssss & friends see u at induction..huhu
plz recognize me despite the amout of weight gain >< ;

till we meet again~~~

p/s :- for the LAST time...i m NOT a nurse!!!!! grrrrrr....

-end-

love letters to u

a love letter specially for my darlings cause i miss you all~~~

*yucks tiba-tiba jiwang plk*

packing

never thought packing would be so hard
i stayed up the whole night
folding clothes that was never ending
i wonder how it mountain up to this much..huhu
even with the huge bag
all my clothes cannot be fit in
packing my books
was no easier
no matter how i put it into boxes
there are still more on my table,shelf,drawers
i m more than positive now those books multiply itself *gyahhh*
and the books weigh tonnes too T.T
there goes all the money for postals..huhu
all other stuff
can i just leave it here
i m going crazy already
mama please come quick

on side note :
packing makes me sad especially when i have to go back early...i can't spend more time with my friends..i m so gonna miss them~
gonna miss my room lots too..goodbye ac room & hot water

our happy ending^^

ALHAMDULILLAH

WE ARE NOW DOCTORS!!!

CONGRATULATIONS BATCH 15

WE DID IT^^

to my beloved V.IP.s
thanx for everything
thanx for always being there for me through all the laughter & cries
life would be soooo unbearable without you gals*hugs*
definitely gonna miss u all*sob sob*

to my friends
you guys are definitely the best bunch of friends i've met so far
thanking the Allmighty for that

to my partner & jiran of 5 years
although both of you are always missing
you guys totally make up for it
by making me laugh
and being there at least when i really need your help

to my groupmates
though there were many dramas
we did have some fun rite..
haha

to my batchmates
i m really proud of being part of this strong batch
congratulations again doctors of batch 15
we did it^^

gonna pack up all my things now
my parents are coming tomorrow
sure gonna miss all my friends
love u all lots
thanx so much for everything
sorry for anything i did wrong
friends forever~~

sorry

exam result is not out yet
probably tomorrow..
the anxiety is killing me
but there is also something else that is bugging me this days
saying goodbyes~
i was never good at saying good byes
because i hate crying
most of the time
i live things hanging just like that........
if there is a chance
we will meet again
that's what i want to believe...
so when i couldn't make it to gatherings
it's not that i don't want to
there is a lot things that i/we are going through/on my mind
but i m willing to bet that there would be more than enough people to fill in my small empty spot~
the gathering would still be a happy one
so friend if today is the last time i see you
i m really sorry for making you mad...
but please know that you do have a special place in my heart
it's going to be very hard to forget you..especially you being someone eccentric in my life..lol
so please forgive me
and thanx for everything
till we meet again?

yeah i am scared

my future is gonna be decided on friday

i m freaking scared

i just hope Allah lets me pass..

a happy ending..i hope

FINALLY FREAKING DONE WITH FINALS MBBS!!!!

and i sure hope

that this will be the last

cause i m freaking tired of this crap...

plz plz GOD lemme & my freinds pass!! amin~

sure working as a houseofficer isn't all beds of roses cause it does have thorns too

but at least.............

i will get paid

XD XD

haiyaaa...klua suda sifat mata duetan materialistika..LOL

whatever la as long as i get out of this freaking college..

though i will definitely miss my IMPORTANTS!!!

speaking of which....

it's CHIBI-chan's b-day today

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY DEAR!!
wishing u all the best things in life again this year *hugs*

tipah tertipu..lol

a stupid story my sister told me in an attempt to make me laugh...

A : i have a friend yg agak lembut
Me : okie..soo
A : ada a fren of dia tgk facebook pics dia..pastuh npk ada gmbr sorg girl cun
Me : don't tell me it's him
A : his fren tny la sape nih..ur awek ke? kiut la
Me : pastuh?
A : the lembut guy blush..
Me : ..........*was thinking confirm that lembut guy*
A : he said it's him..he used photoshop to make his hair long & make up
Me : ooooookie~~~~

i didn't laugh
but
thnx for trying
XD XD

moral of the story :-
don't judge a book by it's cover??
LOL

quoting a classmates fb status:
"... intrigued by ppl's photogenicity....good looking photos are extremely deceiving...sum gurls look great in photos but in reality, i'd rather stare at the sun... The magic of the camera and hours of posing.... "

happy belated birthday mama

been stressing a lot yesterday
too many breakdowns to count
that i totally forgot my mama's bday
until this morning...

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY MAMA!!
MAY ALLAH BLESS U WITH ALL THE HAPPINESS IN LIFE & GOOD HEALTH!!
you deserve all the best things in life
for bringing me,kak,abang,alia & ayu into this world
for guiding us to be the people that we are now
for encouraging us
for always being there for us
for all those prayers u made for us
for your most wonderful oiishi food
and all other things that u do that makes us the best of what we are
love u lotssss mama!!

earthquake+heartquake

long case done..
3 shortcases next

dunno what to say
but..
it was as bad as the earthquake i felt today

i was literally swaying on the bed...
thought at first that i was either going crazy or there was a ghost in mag's room..haha
until i asked hana
"hana nape aku rasa bed nih gerak"
we screamed..LOL

what a way to experience exam day~

nway thnx hana & mag for trying to cheer me up
all the best to all^^

hope we will all make it through~

mintak mak kueh sepotong..lalalalala...

practice history taking/shortcase/examination sessions with my friends ends for this week
cause i m going back for raya tonight..yeay!!^^
though the raya spirit is lacking this year because i m freaking scared of the final exams
i was soooooo freaking scared at one point that i was thinking of not going back for raya
and bug all the patients to let me practice & sharpen my skills *kiasu giler*
but all is loss at the thought of beloved family & mom's rendang..huhu~ ^^;
can't wait...ITADAKIMASUU!!

on another note especially to friends i see on daily basis currently...
if i ever do forget/don't recognize you in the future please feel free to knock my head or if you are nice please forgive me whatever laa you can decide
cause i think i m suffering from early onset dementia
why?
because yet again i don't recognize those people i used to know* i think i used to know laaa* in school/matrix...
they are now h/o in the hospitals where i go to bug the patients
and they somehow recognize me even after yearssss..*super amazed*
while i had to rack my brain over to remember where i had met them & what are their names..arghhh~
thank GOd for name tags!!!!
although i had to pretend i rmmbr as to not offend them *they were super nice to recommend patients with good findings* until i get a peek at their name tags..hhuhu~ *plz forgive me*

anyway today is Mun's Birthday
if you are reading this...
HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY!!!!



all the best to you!!!
thanx to u & nurul i learned a LOT during our practice sessions^^
hope we'll make it through this finals..huhu

almost time to break fast
in a few hours i ll be on the bus home
before i end..
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN TO ALL!!!
LOVE U ALL LOTS...MUAXxX!!

till we meet again..
have lots of fun at home,study & grow fat..haha
ciao peeps~

again & again...

at times when i get frustrated with all the dicks, balls & anal-gesia

who laaa readsss carcinoma of penis or undescended testis...damn i don't even see them at the hospitals
once again i got hooked on to another fandom
yeehaaaa...
helloooooooo 2pm!!!the songs currently being replayed over and over again on my playlist
the utube videos i stalk until 4a.m *oo yeah i m the joker..LOL*
the music i keep hearing in my head while answering MCQ
the cool performance i see on the stage of the exam hall instead of damn Prof. R yapping in front
the ones we fangirl right now^^
the reason we joined damn competitions to get tickets cause i m officially broke
the cause of my impatience -->wanting to go back to my room stat!
*nk tgk 2pm!!!*
oo yeah i can so see the bad prognosis
definitely 10 out of 10
hahaha..

last paper tomorrow
than i m off
back home sweet home
eating free yummy mama cooked food^^
i know la benda nih like benda biasa jeee to some of you
but plz excuse this person for being overly excited to go home
cause it just have been too long~~
just hope studying for finals will be more productive at home..huhu

lets do our best for finals k!!!

despite all the dicks balls and anals we got for sessionals..haha

until than~~

racing like crazy against time...huwawa

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN!!

before cinderella internet gets crazy and die at 1230am
if it's still deciding to be cinderella laa
i ll just write a quickie & get back to work
i just want to say...
that i m really really sorry that i ve been missing on eating meals together,fangirling,disappearing from YM/facebook ,hardly see/talk to my dear neighbours and watever what not....
basicly being asocial XD XD
i promise i will be out of my cave as soon as i m back on track or until the sessionals ends or until i get blind from all the reading..damn i totally thought yesterday was tuesday not wedenesday..and now i m 1 day +++ behind schedule...great great great..i m officially getting loco..huhu

so for now..please bear with me k..hhuhu

you know i love u all

xoxo

sleepy kumako~~

last??lets hope it stays that way

last day of posting!!!!

no specific fond memories

just like boring everyday postings..except lazier XD XD

finally after 5 loooooooong years..

ehh jap keje nnt still ada postings right *damn*

well lets just hope this is the last day we are posted at hospital as Manipol student..
*cross fingers!!!*

now all i have to do is concentrate on sessionals

10 days 9 subjects to studyy..yeay~~

nways.."HAPPY" STUDYING EVERYONE!!

---------------------------------------------

another this time really happy note:-

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ALIA & ABANG ^^
may both of you be blessed with all the happiness in life

*HUGS*

so what?

so what if you are confident with your public speaking
so what if you receive praises for your traditional dance
so what if you straighten your curly hair
so what if you only want to hang out with so called cool people
so what if we are not friends

being in the same group
shouldnt you have the decency to know your temporary groupmate's name
& not refer her as the girl at the front
you may not like her in the first place
giving her the look like you are better than her anywhere/everywhere possible

you are NOT that great
you are NOT always right

please dont be full of youself!!

deja vu

harry potter & 1/2 blood prince

once again i ll just say..

the book is always better than the movie

but knowing that

i still watch it in the cinema XD XD

a lil quickie on the movie..more like the main characters

i still don't think the guy who plays harry potter can act

hermione is reallllllly pretty...she has good skin XD XD

ron has well developed biceps & triceps @=@

i like the girl who plays luna~~ she's exactly how i thought she'll be..bravo

ginny is tall

draco malfoy is not cute anymore..LOL

and i m not ghei..haha

it's not the usual HP movie watching tradition without boss
but get well soon boss^^

post lamp post *lol oyaji gag*

soooo...

in the end i decided la jadik lamp post
plz refer post kt bawah
* yer demi attendance bodo tuhh..naseb baek dpt houseofficer baek tolong suka suki cop kertas..XDXD*

lol

x tau nk kata pe

awkward kot..

i m just thankful i just had to stay for 1 hour ++ ...hohoho

x pasal2 secara medical term nyeh jadik antigen/foreign body

atau dgn layman term nyeh tiang lampu/penonton drama melayu/mangsa keadaan
*yeshhh d heroine of this drama sacrifice me to be the co pilot sbb apparently cm ada avoidance yg selama nih i m not aware of..dont blame me..i mmg blur bnd2 nih...though i m glad i have the blurness during this times..haha*

dh laaa xde orang beranak
xde orang yg nk kena buat VE
seb baek la dr D decided to buat class on normal labour & CTG time tuh..pe lagi i join laa

so moral of the story
don't get MIA partner *somehow slalu dpt partner cmnih..adeh adeh*
klu nk jadik lamp post sila tebal kan muka & activate blur mode to the MAXXX!!

p/s:-boss telah bagi title queen of awkwardness to me..sankyuuu...i love u boss!!

dah dah..baek aku makan burger ayam special nih dari continue mopping around..lapar suda..oichik~

note:- jgn tertipu..nih bukan burger ayam special gazebo...tp lebey kurang laaa nih..byk isi~

than

oyasumik ppl~

the question

to be the tiang lampu

or

NOT

to be the tiang lampu

that is the question

x guna ko partnerrr..huhu~~

on the brink~

when things get too suffocating

lets get a change of air~~

somehow studying at shopping complex is more productive than studying in my room..haha

post study sessionwe look too HAPPY to be exam going students..LOL

but lets all be done with & leave this college together k

and i ll look back at this poikilometry pic..and laugh^^

ganbarimass!!hwaitingg!!studyy!!

lazy weekend

lazy lazy weekend....

especially when it's raining this morning

it was sooo comfortable to sleep that i just slept pass the annoying fire alarm just like that

yes klu betol ada kebakaran
mmg habes hangus dah..hohoh

it has been a long time since i slept like this

damn tomorrow is Monday already~~

i wanna sleep summore

nway today is my lil sis bday

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOOchan
may u get all the BEST things in life^^

bright spots at the end of the week^^

1st & 2nd bright spots
finally..tandoori & butter nan night after a long time..oichikkkk^^
all thnx to that F1 driver..hahah

though it was not the same dinner without chibi-chan & maggie esp when today is mag's bday
for now...i guess a birthday wish would suffice..
so..
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY MAG!!
wishing u all the best in life!!!
*hugs & muahs*
lets get something oichik later k^^V

3rd bright spot
georgina will not be oncall tomorrow !!!!!
*throws confetties^^*
can sleep in tomorrow..yeayy~~

4th bright spot
thanx everyone for the lovely belated prezzie..love it lots*hugs*

5th bright spot
makan & masak cempedak goreng+sembang sembang+watch re runs of GBN sambil ketawa guling guling tengok pelakon tambahan..haha
lama betol x maen lepak lepak kt umah orang^^

at least this weekend x boring sangat time time hostel sunyi sepi^^
thnx tuan rumah & u allsss~

fat joke

at a blood donation campaign................

pakcik attendan sangka funny asked:- berapa berat badan?
girl dgn jujur & straight forward nyeh jawab:- 4*kg
pakcik attendan sangka funny dgn muka disbelief cakap:-yeke x nampak 4*kg pon...mcm 50 lebey je!!
girl dgn annoyed nyeh jawab:- yela saya baru timbang hari minggu baru nih...
annoyed girl thinks :- do i look fat?
pakcik attendan sangka funny dgn muka sangattt disbelief cakap lagi dgn annoying nyehh:-yeke..saya dh lama keje kt sini..saya tau laa..pegi timbang balik tgk...
girl dgn rasa insulted ngn pakcik cakap:- ye le meh tgk saya pegi timbang....

goes to weighing scale....

weighing scale reads-->4*kg

girl said:- kn saya dh cakapppppp!!!x nak caya lagi...
pakcik attendan sgka funny jokingly said:- oo bagos yehh...nampak besar tp sbnr nyeh ringan..ringan pahala ehhh..bagos la dari berat dosa...
girl dah irritated giler malas nk jawab thinks :- wateva la pakcik..sangka funny la tuhhhh~~

silence

pakcik sangka funny :- tahun brp nihh?
girl jawab dgn annoyed nyeh :- tahun akhir~~
pakcik sangka funny :- apsal x penah npk kt hospital
girl yg dh annoyed tuh pikir :- damn u pakcik u r messing with the wrong person at the wrong time *yeah she was tired & cranky*
so the annoyed girl jawab :- pakcik saya baru blk hospital pakcik...tau x skg pukul brp pakcik?? lepas nih saya kena pg blk tau..ishhh~~
annoyed girls thinks again :- plz laaa..aku yg terpacak kt hospital from 750am to 6pm and than pegi blk at 8pm-10pm cakap x pg hospitallll unlike some people i know...plz laaa..i wish i dont have to go to the freaking hospital like some people i know & study a bit for the finals...but somehow i always jadik mangsa keadaan...arghhhh *pulls hair*

stupid session with insensitive pakcik ends..moves on to next counter~~

the girl was emotionally & physically insulted
i m telling u it's the cause why girls are having eating disorders not that i have one..though i do think about it from time to time...in fact i m having benjo as a my supper..damn
now the poor girl believes she's super FAT!!
should she believe her friends anymore....
friends are after all friends...
they are supposed to be NICE to you..huhu

i m thinking i should go on a diet too~~

afterall i have 2 dugongs as thighs & of course other unnecessary appendages~~

damn you stomach always being hungry and making me eat!!!
damn u benjo i m eating right now

i will go on a diet....................someday
focus focus
i know i can do this!!
yes i can....................
someday~~

dirty money is poisonouss!!!

aku nampak muda rupanyehhh..haha

today is my youngest sister's registration day at UKM
can't believe how fast time flies...
she's already entering the University life..my lil kiddo boochan~~
*though with lack of enthusiasimn..haha*

and mama was saying the other day
by the time she graduates i ll be 29..mama why o why la you have to remind me?????

but how come everyone thinks alia & I are twins registering at UKM today..bwahahhahaa
and the 1st years & facillitators are actually making friendly conversations with us instead of boochan~~
i think lagi plek laa for alia since she is a senior at UKM..hahaha

ok.ok.better stop before some people gets jealous with my youthfullness..bwahhahhaha

weekends is toooo shortttt
i miss my family d now that i m back in Melaka

to that you..
thanx for giving me a ride in your BMW^^

to boochan if you are reading this...be safe k & stay genki~
gonna miss u *hugs*

to alia..take care of everyone at home esp mama since i m sure she'll have withdrawal syndromes for boochan~~

and lastly to them..CONGRATSS!!

never ending cases (T-T)

cases o cases..

when la will i ever finish it..adeh

dah la gonna meet up with my family later~~

and i still have time to blog..bwahahahhaha

cant help it laaa..

not that i've put Stand by U PV on repeat since yesterday staring at jaejoong over my work every now and than..huhuh

and my fav parts areeeeeeee....

p/s :- dearest jae i believe it too..yakusoku<3

me gedixxx...no wayyy..hahah

F thinks i m ovulating...
*i m NOT k!!*

cause i was fangirling over the nice MO of the ward i m in..whom i didn't see for 3 days ehh wait 5 days plus last weekends..bwahahahha

alaaa...just cause i only fangirl jaejoong this days..doesn't mean i don't have normal crush ..bwahahaha

i m soooo gonna miss that nice MOmedicine posting ^^

cases...hwaitinggg!!!

LOL

XD XD

work & play~

TRANSFORMERS II REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

AWESOME!!

no spoilers from me

too many pending works..adeh.adeh~~

p/s:-to u i was kinda mad at today..i m sorry

small world~

caution:- depressed mode~

i have no idea why i m even writing this @=@
so please feel free to skip
p/s nothing about the org minyak k..haha

i got my wish alright...
though not in the way i hoped it turned out to be~
My friends are actually starting their housemanship in the hospitals i m posted at..
yeay..i should think to myself
but noooooooo...of course it's never that way for me..
in fact it brought back not so fond memories

these friends are classmates when i was in Penang Matricualtion
and my class is not just any class laa since we have streaming system
H4p1 has students mostly of elite or nearly elite schools with good SPM results
and boasts of all the students having 4.0 in the 1st semester
the skema class..that was how i put it to my physical class friends..LOL

while my classmates go to the library to study and of course do some ehem extracuricular activities
i would be in my room happily dozing off or laughing it all out with my crazy roomates *adeh i miss them alredi*

while they sit at front rows in the lecture hall
i would be somewhere behind doodling my paper

while they would without fail do their tutorials each week
i would without fail copy my mrsm classmate aka my bestpal aka my matrix classmate aka lab partner also without fail..hahah *i know we came loooongg way back together..but i thank God i have her with me in my class..huhu*

while they have a million questions in their head to ask lecturers
i would stay quiet in class..rather minding my own business

while they would diligently go to class
i cut as many as i wanted..plus i was invisible remember~

my mentor loves them
me...invisible as usual..haha

so getting the same result as them
and of course getting a chance for the interview
some didn't think it's fair for a slob like me
in fact my mentor was also shocked or rather just noticed me
at one time i felt depressed because of it
cause i have prominent flaws compared to them~~

don't get me wrong
they are really nice people
i just...don't feel belong in that class??
in fact i hardly join any class activities..
i prefer joining my roomates class
i dunno laaa..

and today..
they actually recognize me when they saw me in the wards
i was..err blur?
see they are nice people who remembers their friends
even if that person is a lazy asocial slob who used to not wear glasses

i m happy with my class right now*not all but still mostly la*
cool friends and all
but why do i feel inadequate again after meeting them puzzles me
maybe cause they are already starting their careers
and i can totally see the semangat kira kira ness in them
as for me
i m stuck in this hell hole college with their stupid programs i don't even know how to explain to others about it...*WTH senior clerkship???* wondering if i m even gonna pass my final MBBS with the amout of rust in my brain~~
plus...where the hell is my semangat kira kira ness???

aaa..that is probably the inadequacy............

delusionally in love!!!

^________________________^

this is my silly BIG GRIN watching Mirotic tour

i finally found the cut version of my favourite part in DBSK 3rd asian Mirotic tour
thanx a lot to the wonderful people who uploaded it^^


once again
jae never fails to make me fall in love with him
again & again..kyaaa~~
can't wait to go to their seoul concert..huhu

no more boss^^

as of this second...

I M NO LONGER GROUP LEADER!!!!

*throws confetties*

no more being the responsible one*woot woot*
no more proxy-ing people who don't deserve it
no more facing people's crap wait.wait that might just still be the same
no more feeling guilty lying to doctors/lecturers *maybe just a bit..won't hurt*
no more calling lecturers on the phone
no more high phone bills*at least lower laa..huhu*
no more planning schedule for the group
no more answering sometimes kinda stupid questions
no more pretending & being hypocrite *though it's an essential skill to survive*
no more being blamed all the time

no way i m gonna miss all this!!!

I M FREAKING LOVING IT TO BE FREE!!!

i m back to my simple invisible lifestyle^^

although the next few postings are really frightening..gyaaa
time to get serious people..huhu
but right now i ll recuperate first~~

have a great weekend people^^V

sape termakan cili dia la terasa..

my groupmates and i have been together for almost 5 years now
so being together for that looonnggg duration
of course sometimes cakap pon cm mulut xde saman..oo well besa la tuh rite~~
it happened that one day i was teasing one of my groupmates about his attendance
and all of a sudden....
a small voice said "hey that's mean!!"

hey sape termakan cili dia la rasa pedas..ada paham kaa???

i m really trying my best to be nice to everyone
but everyone has a limit..
so please don't push it..i wish i could say this~

and being the most responsible one
is never my best trait
nor am i the best liar or suave
i can't even save my own a** even if life depended on it
much less other people...huhu

and God..guilty conscious is really bugging me right now..but so is the lazy bug..damn~~

i have to go to bed early again today
another unfinished chapter of my daily studies
another long day in Muar..oo yippie~

sleeping is the best medicine

It was raining just now

perfect for sleeping~~

nuff said..

I LOVE SLEEPING!!!

RAWRRRR!!!

i was super sleepy & hungry today

hear me ROAR!!!

p/s :- sorry to everyone involved~

only fools rush in

i m telling ALL of you...

volunteering yourself to present a case to a SCARY lecturer

you would either be..

TOO confident & brave

or

a self destructing IDIOT!!

and to put yourself in that position like soooo many times...

i would have to say is a BAD prognosis!!

even cats have 9 lives...

i m telling you guys who sit quietly pretending like it's nothing of your concern....

that is the most ingenious act to be done..haha

however sorry to say..that doesn't give you the right to say it's okay only today~~

cause it's NOT!!

NOT when you're just sitting, watching the idiotic self destructing person get shot down..bullet after bullet...definitely NOT hokay~

so friends...

please be smart~

like they say--> silence is golden..haha

when there is a will there is a way..so they say~

activity daily living status-->DEPENDANT on weekdays and certain weekends...

haishhhh~~~
i HATE to be dependant on other people
but it makes me wonder why i don't even bother having my own car here in college...
though i do know i m a lazy ass
and hate driving in the extremely hottt sun as much as i hate being dependant~
LOL
thats that...
and because of this
i have to bend to other ppl's schedule
get ripped by MElaka taxi drivers...
*pls la pakcik we are NOT stupid...we know you guys are liying about the fee just cause we go to a private college...come on la even in K.L it's cheaper..and the cost of living is higher too..well it's your sin for liying to students..damn*
waste time waiting for bus *although i dont really mind if it's with "them"*
walk long distance to pasar malam...*this also don't really mind cause i'll get exercise for my osteoporotic prone bones..hahah*
well the list can go on and on...
but everything is just FINE if you are with a bunch of crazy fun people who are on the same boat with you..hehe
it makes our college life more special from others??
that sometimes ppl just dont understand how we do it..hahha
the simple answer to that is we have too much fun together we forget those which other ppl think is a hassle or problem~~~

though i maybe dependant in times in need
i definitely do NOT all the time
so i would appreciate it that people don't think i m taking advantage of my friends
cause i don't...
and as much as possible...i WON'T!!
not until i know i m worthy of it..

i still have my 2 own feets
and will very well make use of them
as much as i can

but

of course i won't be able to..without my GREAT supports^^
*please take note:-this entry is not intended to offend anyone in anyway..it's just me..haha~~

just cause everyone decided to change their template~~

i usually avoid sappy sad love stories...

especially if i have to watch ALONE!!!!

but the jobless me during the weekend finally decided i should watch koizora the moviethe end result of me...
was pretty pathetic...damn~~

note to self--> NEVER watch sappy sad love stories ALONE!!!
*like la being in this damn senior clerkship is not sad enough..haiyaaa*

oo yeah
as if it's NOt enough
here's another sappy sad love MV

the plus point is i LOVE jae's voice^^

patut la katak suka dok bawah tempurung

please note that whatever this senior clerkship is supposed to do

for me....

it's definitely working in ONE way

that is...

separating me & my peeps

i hardly see anyone other than my groupmates anymore

damn you college for taking away my comfort pillow!!!! *and of course literally--> taking away my sleep time*

if this is how things are going to be in the real world

i hate it already

i m crossing my fingers to at least get to practice in my hometown of comfort zone..hoho~

oo wait

i have to pass my exams first

damn u college!!!!

p/s :- i m still alive..i m just being childish & bratty todayyyy~~~

*totally random post......plz excuse me*

this i like^^

i like watching GBN more now....

why???

the simple reason & logic is cause i like HJ's new haircut....kyaaa~~~
*yep being the superficial biased me thats my simple logic^^*

but HJ with new hairdo sleeping is the BEST..huhu*drools drools*i practically died watching this scene
and yet...i still chose to repeat my death so many times by watching it over and over again even to the extend of screencaping it...thats how much i like this scene...nyahhaha..

LOL
if only anyone could explain the concept of sleeping so beautifully
please feel free to share
i could use some tips to avoid being detected by lecturers that i m actually sleeping in class ....haha

p/s :-EPT frenzy this week...good luck ppl!!

it's not you..neither it is me...

i CAN'T feel my own apex beat!!!
.....................
.............
.....
okie
but according to the clinical examination book by talley apex beat is only palpable in 50% of adults
so it's safe to think i m normal and non obesed?

anyway
i just wish i could say

dear teachers..

just because i look bored in the wards during case presentation
doesn't mean i'm not interested
most of the time it's because my leg & back is hurting like hell for standing more than 3 hrs

just because i look sleepy in the seminar room during case presentation
it's not because your lectures are damn boring *although in certain situations it is..huhu*
it's probably because the room is comfortable?
yeah rite..hahah

don't blame yourself that you can't keep me focus
i m just too stubborn & attention deficit

and plz don't blame me for not being able to answer your high tech questions
i m just suffering from pseudodementia
but hey
i m doing the best i can here..trust me or not

i accept the fact that u have a blindspot towards certain ppl
i shld be thankful coz being invisible is better than being picked on no?

well.. not being able to perform examination in 7 min is my fault tho..
for being lazy
i m a supposed-panda
panda loves to hibernate esp. in the current weather*reads very very la the mendung & cold weather*^^
yeah and blankie is already calling

p/s:- dear teachers..sometimes too much scolding doesn't do any good..some students actually thinks it's harder to study that way..and the nagging..it works actually..but still without it makes the world a more peaceful place..spying & checking on students is also not cool..we are NOT kiddies k!!

long live ward works~

oyasumik ppl~

kira kira city ^^

i m in love with this place
and it's NOT because of the much commercial festival


the riverside..
colourful lights..
great company..
*but chibi & kitsune was greatly missed XD XD*
yeah...
it feels like fairyland!!!!
too bad it's here only for a short duration of time
so ppl dont miss it~

we are not sheeps..and mary is freaking dictator

i m super pissed....
colourful vocabs are running through my mind
so just to keep it safe *if ever the STUPID MANAGEMENT finds this...which i doubt*
lemme just shout...
I WANT THE FREAKING 90% ATTENDANCE BACK!!!!!
i don't care if i have to attend class on every saturday.....just give 90% back
and u freaking liars..if u rmmbr common prog is on saturdays
and like u ever accept any valid reasons other than RMs
MCs.... death certs...yeah rite
argh...
this is frustrating
even if i rant it out here
it won;t really make any difference
nor will my frustrations die out
lol
all i wanted was to try my best this last 1 year
and d stupid someone just had to make it harder
damn~

too much too laugh but too scared for tomorrow~

can't get enough of boys over flower???
why not watch big bang parody flower big bang
LOL...
part 1

part 2

i can't imagine GDragon as Rui..adeh adeh..and TOP..omg..my cognitive function must somehow be impaired
p/s:-there's also coffee prince parody
and noooooooooooo.......
plz i don't want to go to hospital tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!

all for one and one for all

finally after sooooooo many weekends
the musketeers are finally 4 on an outing
actually..it was 6 just now..haha
wateva..it was fun and the more the merrier^^
going out with friends is always fun
so thanks you guys for today...
i kinda miss those days when all of us would have the time to hang out~

so anyway
we watched inkheartand i'm thinking being a silvertongue would be really cool
imagine if you could bring your favourite novel/manga heroes into real life
*reads what if you could bring edward cullen to our world..nyahahha...oo.oo...and of course all my favourite manga heroes which is tooooo many to list..hahah..i'll just leave this to everyones lil inner theater..huhuhu*
the day that will happen is when i find myself dead and woke up in heaven *hopefully....i'm not that GOOD...but i m hoping i m good enough..huhu..*
LOL...a dreamer i may seem like
but a lil bit of fantasy would't really hurt rite..especially in this super boring life...

oo yeah
speaking of fantasy
one of my friends was talking about marrying rich guys
and the incidental finding was i found this site on dating rich men
turns out the creator of my everyday dose of amusemant on the net aka FACEBOOK is a millionaire *duh..i know*
but what i didn't know was this guy is just 24 going on to 25
and already...he is filthy RICH
where am i at 24-25
if i'm LUCKY
i'll be working my a** in a humid,congested government hospital with no life,being treated like a d** by the specialist or seniors..with hopefully lots of money? but i know la not as much as the CEO of facebook... hahah..i dunno laaa especially after my sister talk about the dispensing/prescription nantoka arguements between doctors and pharmacist which now i'm sorry to say i don't give a damn...i rest my case~
well back to what i have just written..that is if i m LUCKY and hardworking enough
but right now..that is what i need..what we all need..to pass the final hurdle..damn~
well better start now that honeymoon postings are over
medicine postings briefing already made my heart sink like titanic
thankfully i have so many lifeguards *hugs*
i guess I AM lucky after all^^V

it s red red day

i was supposed to this yesterday

BUT..................

firefox was being difficult.adeh

so i m 1 day late to wish beloved shilang Jae

well it's better late than never

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAE!!!!may all your wishes come true ^^

and also happy chinese new year to all my friends & chinese of the world
ooo yeah...ang pow please..i'm dead broke anyway..huhu

LOL..haru haru

as usual...
weekends is utube days~
as recommended by mag
this parody is prolly the best ever..haha

the original MV -->haru haru by big bang

*of course credits to wondersmurf ^^*

beautiful mind

how do you write a presenting complaint of hearing voices telling that she has a fortune worth millions left by her dead grandfather and that she has to distribute the money among the bugis bentan origins...oo yeah did i mention she is also a descendant of the melaka sultanante...she was apparently dead for a long time but somehow is still in this world...the voices that she heard lives in Baghdad lama which is in Melaka...and this voices looks the ghost in chinese movies*hahaha..lol..i wonder where she got this idea* and these voices wants to get married with her...trust me there is sooooo much more to this story which i soooo find interesting *LOLs* but find it hard to fit it all in this tiny pink logbook....yep no kidding i m writing my logbook already this early..heheh~
psychiatry is nothing like ong
of course one deals with the mind while the other deals with uterus
but...
the amount of free time..awesomeness~
i could watch movie almost everynight
but being the kiasu me
i also watch educational ones like beautiful mind-->a schizo story..hehe
how i m going to miss days like this
i hardly had enough sleep during ong
and i m foreseeing worst is to come in the near horrifying future..yada~
but one thing is for sure
an important lesson learnt during ong....
i ll try not to forget the emergency contraceptions
you never know.....
you just might need it in the future..heheh~

blush monster

1st day of psychiatry
and i m already brilliantly self diagnosing myself as Social Phobia?
lol
i was even surprised to know that there is such thing as erythrophobia --> fear of blushing..huwawawa~
don't get me wrong
i don't fear blushing...
i just hate it when it comes unnecessarily
like it's the most natural thing ever...aiyak
but i would pass looking like Patrick the starfish any day if i could~

speaking of which....
i don't think my face cleanser is in production anymore
it just went extinct...
how could something important like that extinct someone please tell me
and i m at my very last drop already
this Patrick thinks it's enough being Patrick without being multifaceted k
it's not fair...but than again life is never that fair..is it?
if not...thousands of innocent Palestinian won't get murdered by the inhumane Israels...*honestly inhumane is an understatement but i just can't think of other words right now*the US government won't close their eyes to this disaster & ignore the rest of the world urge to stop this insanity..
even someone who is not well versed of the world news would know this is plain wrong...
aaaa...politics..what do i know..heheh

btw..
to have your wishing star moving away from it's orbital tract
it feels kinda weird...
but i wish the star will shine it's brightest wherever it's revolving
so good luck wishing star^^

p/s :- HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA!!!

pp/s :- to that somebody...i love that round shiro *hugs* sankyuuuu^^

1.1.2009

goodbye 2008
hello 2009
not that there would be any different than other days in my life

this new years resolution :- I WANT TO BE MORE RAJIN!!!
it's gonna be really hard especially when i 'm already thinking of bunking class tomorrow..
*most of the reason was coz my current partner in crime in the grp decided to leave me with someone i don't like..and we mutually don't like each other and currently playing to be nice game..yeay~*

and i m betting i wont be rajin enough to update this blog.ahahah

ok enough negative predicitions of the future maybe should chng this new yrs resolution to being more optimistic...dang

lets get on to....

2009 meme*i don't really have highlights of 2008*

What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
-got to the highest point in melaka-eat nasik kerabu and loving it..hahah
-slept through a movie

Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i would say i did pretty well last year 08 cause i was SUPER NICE to people
this year i'm thinking of being rajin.yep.i think i can considering i m already super kiasu this posting..hehe~

What countries did you visit?
in 2008 , none sadly~

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
i m thankful for most of the things i have rite now...but a lil bit of confidence this year would be great~

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
err..got into final year.. i guess~

What was your biggest failure?
to become thinner..

What was the best thing you bought?
DBSK stuff^^

Whose behaviour merited celebration?
my mom..i love u mama^^

Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
a certain dr V..hehe

Where did most of your money go?
food..i guess

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
LONGGG HOLIDAYS!!! can go back penang and eat the mama's most oishik cooking & other yummy delicacies only can be found in penang...Penang char kueyteow is just isn't Penang Char kuey teow anywhere else...although it amuses me to see in every other place..hohoho
and of course spending time with family~~

What song/album will always remind you of 2008?T album by tohoshinki i guess..the one the lovable them got me for my birthday this year^^

Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. happier or sadder?
it was a vague once upon time memory i can't rmmbr

2. thinner or fatter?
i would say moderately built and nourished..i'm somewhere in between but my psychological mind thinks i'm FAT..okie..next

3. richer or poorer?
POORER!!..oo cek MARA bila laa nk sampai~~~~

What do you wish you’d done more of?
studying...i'm easily distracted like now i m diverting from my case write up..but anymore studying i would need a puke bucket..adeh..to u guys who love studying..i salute u~

What do you wish you’d done less of?
PROSCRASTINATE,SLEEP
and of cos blush unecessarily/unitentionaly...sux laa when u look all like Patrick for no apparent reason...gyayayayyay~~~

Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
lovable FAMILY

Did you fall in love in 2008?
i've always been in love with jae..haha

How many one night stands in this last year?
EBRDOSA!!!

What was your favourite TV programme?
as much as i love korean varieties...i would have to say American Next Top Model..hohoh

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
nope i always hate dis few people..though it has reduce slightly to dislike cause i m a NICE person like that..

What was the best book(s) you read?
although i did recommend twilight..after the movie i would just have to say i m sorry stephanie mayer it's not you..it's me & of course d lousy movie..romance is not really my cup of tea..although i really.really LOVEEE VAMPIRES!!!
best book i read in 08...i guess Oxford handbook of clinical medicine 7th edition. this book fits in the labcoat pocket & have colourful pages heheh...gyaa..how pathetic is that..i miss those days when i can read new storybooks almost every week..huhu

What was your greatest musical discovery?
DBSK

What did you want and get?
a new handphone ;P

What did you want and not get?
trip to japan

What were your favourite films of this year?
almost everything i watch with the 4 musketeers^^

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went to class as usual laa..i think i had end posting or something...i was 1723

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
vacation with my family

What kept you sane?
family&friends..and of course the Almighty

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
paris hilton..hahah..nope..not really but i really look up to my mama..

What did you miss?
my family

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
always trust in the Almighty~

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
i m not sure of the lyric & no korean wiz..but i like the song Full Sunshine, Doremifasolatido ost..it sounds like the background music of times when i m having fun with my friends & family;P

-the end-

before i say hi to dreamland
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!