giving up on me

half way through my current department...
after that i ll be free
i want to go on a lonnnnggg break
vacation or backpacking somewhere
just thinking about it makes me grin like a cheshire cat
after all the hardwork
never getting the cuti i wanted
missing on reunions & weddings
i m finally gonna have my own post ho vacation ^^

on another fact that makes me grin
i think specialist J gave up on me d..haha
i guess i m just too dumb & not interested in the subject to salvage
how do i know??
the most obvious part is specialist J reduced ehh wait...stop bombarding me pop quiz questions d..i m sooooo relieved..hohohho
also specialist J always has a grin on the face which to me looks freaking fake
but now around me specialist J looks what i think is a reflection of me
like this --> (~____________~) aka blank face
lol
but not all the time
i guess it's habitual for specialist J to break into the fake grin
because today when specialist J saw that a young patient-post MVA with DAI-on trachy is from around the same area as we are
specialist J grin & look at me who was writing in the BHT and said "hahaha...he's from our territory...should we transfer him to our territory"
MOs were confused la of course
inside joke
ok whatever
it just freaks me out specialist J actually remembers where i live....damn

so just have to tahan till february
hopefully everything goes well
huhu~~

wish me luck peeps..
God plz help me

food chain

congrats to all my friends...

finally M.O after 2 years

after this will be
S/B all you peeps
case & progress noted
signed by houseman

a step up in the hospital hierarchy

but please don't forget you were once a houseman k..
and don't be mean to ppl like me..

haishh
working like a dog
dunno if i' ll ever be able to step up
with the SBPA
dunno if i ll be kick out of government service without full registration
than what will i do..
any suggestions..
heard growing mushrooms is good business this days..haha

oo well all i can do is pray~~

i miss my peeps
p/s :- plz don't merajuk with me too long~~

sweet escape

the specialist oncall today (he's the one who is quite fatherly, on & off forgetting my simple name & looks super stress during oncalls...LOL) asked if i was going to our department annual night

the blur me obviously did not even know it exist..
so when he ask me to go
i automatically said yes...
the problem is being where i am now..at lowest of the food chain saying yes to my superiors comes just like a reflex...but just work related laa k ppl~~

5 minutes later i was already regretting

enough with having to fake smile my way everyday at work

trying to force my self socializing with them while trying to eat something supposedly delicious

i have already loss my appetite thinking about it..huhu

thank God this specialist if quite fatherly
if it was the other specialist i m sure i can't wiggle my way out..huhu
bravely i said i can't got
he wanted a valid reason
i didn't get to answer when he asked "u going out with ur boyfren ke??"
and on reflex again i said yes..haha

whatever...as long as i got to escape that night....

i m amazed at how i m gaining weight despite losing appetite at the thought of them
my metabolism must be running slower...
damn i hate getting old...
need to start swimming
one day~~~