poker face

ok i was wrong

there is no such thing as perfection in a person

and God is fair to everyone

each and everyone of us have our fatal flaw....

i can't believe i fell for the oldest trick in the book of flaw

hypocrite......2 face

something i hate the most

ooo how well some potray the nice, smart & helpful person

when in all truth they might backstab you or worse.........

no wonder that particular boss
with all the smiley , helpful & gentleman attitude
would always some how attack me with questions..huhu
when the fact is that boss never wanted too many ho in the dept *not that i requested to be pon here..cries*
i don't know if that particular boss intention is to teach me * because he is trying to teach me*
or just make me more depress being in the department
but i don't trust him....
he already made my friend sad
and i have a feeling i will be next..damn

ooo well
i can't always have my way
been the department pet for too long
will have to learn to protect myself soon

useless

as a houseman
i know i might be lacking on the knowledge part
because i m lazy i know...

but i try to compensate it all by trying to get experience
helping others.......

yeah maybe there are times my work is a bit messy & slip shot
but never have i been said i have poor working ethics
being told that
makes me feel i m useless

i m a lil bit blur and slow compared to others
but i m trying my best to cope T.T

the current department i m in is a new thing for me

though i didn't want it in the first place as i knew i have no confidence
i try to believe it's God will for me......

but how come upto this day i m still having second thoughts
A&E sounds a lot better
though its all hard work
i feel i ll be more useful
and maybe
happier~~~

but the grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence..haishh

some people have all the luck

God is too generous to some people........

because if not

there wouldn't be some people who are not only gifted in brains
but also blessed with good looks
and goddamn HUGE hearts..........

but i guess that's why God made them a rare species

and married

or taken...

lucky them

damn..........

at least i was lucky enough to be allowed to go back home early just because he thinks it's dangerous for cute girls to travel back home alone at night..hihih

of course the o.t being shut down for maintanance is another factor..LOL

but have to study harder laaa..
he makes me feel stupid everyday..haishh