being mama

finally end posting holidays that i ve been waiting for have come

of course passing the posting with flying colours makes it all the better

i almost woke up the usual time to work today

when i realize

i m sleeping in my oooo sooo commmfyy bed...
and i didn't have to go to work ^^
how i miss the privilege to wake up late....
and so i did
though not too late
woke around 9 today to see mama was already awake *of course..duh* watching k drama as usual on kbs
mama wanted to make me breakfast but i said i was not hungry yet & i didn't want to disturb mama watching her daily dose of k drama

anyway she made me eat breakfast after the show ended
and we had a peaceful and of course YUMMY with a capital Y breakfast ^^
my tummy was practically singing in joy after breakfast
God knows how long i ve ate breakfast like this with mama
since started working usually i would wake up, shower ,skip breakfast and dash to work....
thinking about it mama...i pity mama having to eat breakfast alone everyday
even i hate eating all alone
no wonder mama seems to lose weight lately
everyone is just too occupied with stupid work...including me~

mama was doing laundry after breakfast
wanted to help out but she insisted i rest since i don't really have much holidays
so i was watching the awesome slave hunter series *i know i m super ketinggalan zaman* while observing mama

episode 1 of slave hunter
= mama doing laundry & gardening

episode 3 of slave hunter
= mama preparing lunch

episode 4
= had lunch with mama

episode 5
= mama reading newspaper ,than started sewing something & watching something on KBS

episode 6
= mama preparing food for dinner & making karipap

episode 7
= dinner with mama, abang & dad + watching happiness in the wind on KBS

episode 8
= watch news + sewing something + preparing something *food i guess because we are going K.L next day...must be la..mama always prepare food ^^ *

episode 9
= iron clothes
= pack some stuff for K.L trip

episode 10
= mama went to sleep because she had to wake up early to prepare food for those chibis in K.L

fast forward to ep 15
= LOL i was on calling all night watching slave hunter because it was so damn addictive
= mama woke up to see me who didn't sleep whole night
= prepared me tea & started cooking......

i told mama i kesian having her stay all alone at home
she said it s OK
she has flowers & plants in the garden she would talk to if we are not around
but she's more than happy when we called
mama never like going K.L
but since lil chibis are there
she is more than happy to be there with everyone of us cramped up in a hotel room ^^

anyway tomorrow is 1st October
the birthday of the cutest & best mom in the whole wide world
my MAMA
and not to mention also mama & dad's wedding anniversary
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA & HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MAMA & DADDY!!!

thank you for raising this difficult child
and may GOD bless u with all the happiness in life
love u always mama ^^

menjual ikan

i am selfish....

in a way

i guess

i realize i value my sleep more than other things....

i am selfish

maybe...

that i don't really think about other people's feeling

taking everything for granted

i am selfish

yes...

for making my dad or brother fetch me to & from work

i am selfish

sadly

that i don't really help mama with housework

i am selfish

i guess

for not realizing all this and more...

and soo...

i will keep this in mind
try to change
or just keep it for next new years resolution ..hoho

-the end-

i never thought i would ..... .hahah

i never thought i would last housemanship this long

i never thought i would pass a posting with so much racism

i never thought i would pass end posting the best in batch

i never thought that my M.O would actually trust me with a lot of stuff

i never thought i would actually like a person who is soooo not my type *i guess appearance don't matter now that we are working*

i never thought i would reject another person ........ again~~

i never thought others would think me as a very social person..haha

i never thought i would be likeable?

i never thought my specialist would think me as the 1 malaysia girl

i never thought i would miss my darlings sooo much

i never thought i would be best buddies with V & J

i never thought about a lot of stuff

well maybe it's because my brain is just empty...haha

i m sorry that i hurt u

i know most of the time i can be oblivious of everything around me

sometimes i choose to ignore what i don't want to see

in the end......

people get hurt

after realizing it i just don't know how to make it right again

i don't want people to hate me...

but other people's feeling is not something i can control

and s*** la i dunno what i ll do if that person becomes my MO in the end T.T

i just wanna make it right again >.<