wanted

WANTED

lil miss chibi who has a big heart & equally big brain
lil miss sunshine who is always there for a friend & makes everything right again

lil miss fun who is always ever ready doing something random & fun

i miss "jaebom" girls so much..haha
i miss our carefree days~

misunderstood

i don't speak their language

nor do i have the same brain wavelenght as a 6th poster

but there is always two sides to a story

and obviously mine is opposite to theirs...

s T u c K

funny how over the past few months that i've started housemanship
there are already 3 houseman coincidentally who are all close to me and had always advise me to be strong suddenly decided to quit........

1st one to go was a colleague when i was in O&G
she was one of the excited senior houseman who wanted me to be in their team
she was one of the best partners i had when i had to be on call
she was one of the people who would comfort me when i cry
buy me food when i m on call
give sisterly advise
and had fun & laughs together......
and all of a sudden
she had a family crisis
couldn't take the stress
and left........

2nd was my roomie
a senior whom i knew in med school
she always told me to ignore everything
just do my work
come back
and forget everything
brought me out to dinner & movies
invited her to her wedding
after getting married
things got harder for her to handle the stress
she had a supportive & not to mention wealthy hubby who is more than happy for her to quit
but she didn't want to disappoint her family
in the end
she did just that
quit..
for once she just wants to do what she wants

3rd was someone i knew when i was in O&G
because i would meet her when she does she periphery paeds call
and somehow we ended in the same department
she is awesome & really knew her stuff
learn quite a lot from her when i was tagging
there were no signs
out of the blue a resignation letter was submitted
she wanted to help her husbands business.......

they left me wondering
with what i should do
i really want to quit
life is just too hard for me to handle
and i hate this job

but if i quit...
i still have no plans for the future
i would be penniless
i would disappoint my family
i would not be able to travel
i would be a fat potato couch
i would be a burden
i would have to eat mushrooms........

yeah i m stuck
where s my prince charming when i need him????
or i should just join AF like my MO told me too..hahah..as if i have talent

anyway i know most people would smack me in the head if i do this
esp "BFF" & guardian *though guardian know nothing about this cause i m always evading..hahah*
and my family?

so again where's my prince charming?
where are u JAE????