paranoid

the 2nd month in O&G already
but there are still lots of things i m not sure of & of course don't know

1 thing i know for sure is.........
it's hard to find someone we can trust here
they are just as talented as a chameleon
i m amazed at how these people can talk sooooo nicely & smile to that one person
and then bitch about them later on
ok
so i think it's fine if they rant their hearts out to another houseman if they feel irritated with that person
but to bitch about them to the M.O just for a small problem
i feel pity for that person...
haishhhh

i don't want to think that some of these people might be doing the same thing to me

but somehow they might just have~~

yep

i m being paranoid

but it's better safe than sorry~~

please come before 5pm

i officially HATE on calls & eods....

and being jonah is not a good thing

i don't think there is any history in ward 4 (gynae ward)
until i was oncall in that ward that night
that there was 2 ruptured ectopics both pon haemodynamically unstable...both pon mula mula kononnyeh miscarriage..until la scan done....haishhh~~~~

not to mention yg time nk resuscitate & sebok sebok prepare OT sorg2 la *coz i was the only houseofficer there* nak ada sudden influx of patients...........pulls hairrr

i was practically on the verge of tears trying to finish clerking everyone...plus have to monitor people coming in for high BP...........
plus the nurses that time not helping langsung
lagi tambah kerja for me ada laaaaaaaa
"doktor branula kena set laen la"
"doktor kena amek FBC post transfusion la"
"doktor patient saket sgt perot laaaaaaaa"
etc etc............
WTHHHHHHHHHHH...........
leave me alone laaaaaaaaaa
i have gazzilionsssss of people to clerkkkk & examine...
and u not even helping sgt monitor BP..haishhhhhhhh
happily sitting around gossiping when i havent even taken my bath nor eaten

and so people please laaaaaaa...

to mothers to be

if u decide to have PV bleed or high BP that day..please la come before 5
there are a lot of houseofficers to layan u that time..........
sekian terima kasih~~

btw today there is a code blue in my hospital
*the day before was Code Red kt labour room-->eclampsia*
and suddenly thought of a certain konon nyeh-out-of-bed-hairdo Doctor Aizawa Kosaku..hahha it's been a looooooong time since i fangirl with my darlingss
i sooo miss everyone ~~~

can't wait for that meet up..hihi
till we meet again
me off to ZzZzZZzzz land another on call tomorrow...i hate eods!!

p/s :- plz pray that i wont b jonah again...