again & again...

at times when i get frustrated with all the dicks, balls & anal-gesia

who laaa readsss carcinoma of penis or undescended testis...damn i don't even see them at the hospitals
once again i got hooked on to another fandom
yeehaaaa...
helloooooooo 2pm!!!the songs currently being replayed over and over again on my playlist
the utube videos i stalk until 4a.m *oo yeah i m the joker..LOL*
the music i keep hearing in my head while answering MCQ
the cool performance i see on the stage of the exam hall instead of damn Prof. R yapping in front
the ones we fangirl right now^^
the reason we joined damn competitions to get tickets cause i m officially broke
the cause of my impatience -->wanting to go back to my room stat!
*nk tgk 2pm!!!*
oo yeah i can so see the bad prognosis
definitely 10 out of 10
hahaha..

last paper tomorrow
than i m off
back home sweet home
eating free yummy mama cooked food^^
i know la benda nih like benda biasa jeee to some of you
but plz excuse this person for being overly excited to go home
cause it just have been too long~~
just hope studying for finals will be more productive at home..huhu

lets do our best for finals k!!!

despite all the dicks balls and anals we got for sessionals..haha

until than~~

racing like crazy against time...huwawa

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN!!

before cinderella internet gets crazy and die at 1230am
if it's still deciding to be cinderella laa
i ll just write a quickie & get back to work
i just want to say...
that i m really really sorry that i ve been missing on eating meals together,fangirling,disappearing from YM/facebook ,hardly see/talk to my dear neighbours and watever what not....
basicly being asocial XD XD
i promise i will be out of my cave as soon as i m back on track or until the sessionals ends or until i get blind from all the reading..damn i totally thought yesterday was tuesday not wedenesday..and now i m 1 day +++ behind schedule...great great great..i m officially getting loco..huhu

so for now..please bear with me k..hhuhu

you know i love u all

xoxo

sleepy kumako~~

last??lets hope it stays that way

last day of posting!!!!

no specific fond memories

just like boring everyday postings..except lazier XD XD

finally after 5 loooooooong years..

ehh jap keje nnt still ada postings right *damn*

well lets just hope this is the last day we are posted at hospital as Manipol student..
*cross fingers!!!*

now all i have to do is concentrate on sessionals

10 days 9 subjects to studyy..yeay~~

nways.."HAPPY" STUDYING EVERYONE!!

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another this time really happy note:-

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ALIA & ABANG ^^
may both of you be blessed with all the happiness in life

*HUGS*

so what?

so what if you are confident with your public speaking
so what if you receive praises for your traditional dance
so what if you straighten your curly hair
so what if you only want to hang out with so called cool people
so what if we are not friends

being in the same group
shouldnt you have the decency to know your temporary groupmate's name
& not refer her as the girl at the front
you may not like her in the first place
giving her the look like you are better than her anywhere/everywhere possible

you are NOT that great
you are NOT always right

please dont be full of youself!!

deja vu

harry potter & 1/2 blood prince

once again i ll just say..

the book is always better than the movie

but knowing that

i still watch it in the cinema XD XD

a lil quickie on the movie..more like the main characters

i still don't think the guy who plays harry potter can act

hermione is reallllllly pretty...she has good skin XD XD

ron has well developed biceps & triceps @=@

i like the girl who plays luna~~ she's exactly how i thought she'll be..bravo

ginny is tall

draco malfoy is not cute anymore..LOL

and i m not ghei..haha

it's not the usual HP movie watching tradition without boss
but get well soon boss^^

post lamp post *lol oyaji gag*

soooo...

in the end i decided la jadik lamp post
plz refer post kt bawah
* yer demi attendance bodo tuhh..naseb baek dpt houseofficer baek tolong suka suki cop kertas..XDXD*

lol

x tau nk kata pe

awkward kot..

i m just thankful i just had to stay for 1 hour ++ ...hohoho

x pasal2 secara medical term nyeh jadik antigen/foreign body

atau dgn layman term nyeh tiang lampu/penonton drama melayu/mangsa keadaan
*yeshhh d heroine of this drama sacrifice me to be the co pilot sbb apparently cm ada avoidance yg selama nih i m not aware of..dont blame me..i mmg blur bnd2 nih...though i m glad i have the blurness during this times..haha*

dh laaa xde orang beranak
xde orang yg nk kena buat VE
seb baek la dr D decided to buat class on normal labour & CTG time tuh..pe lagi i join laa

so moral of the story
don't get MIA partner *somehow slalu dpt partner cmnih..adeh adeh*
klu nk jadik lamp post sila tebal kan muka & activate blur mode to the MAXXX!!

p/s:-boss telah bagi title queen of awkwardness to me..sankyuuu...i love u boss!!

dah dah..baek aku makan burger ayam special nih dari continue mopping around..lapar suda..oichik~

note:- jgn tertipu..nih bukan burger ayam special gazebo...tp lebey kurang laaa nih..byk isi~

than

oyasumik ppl~

the question

to be the tiang lampu

or

NOT

to be the tiang lampu

that is the question

x guna ko partnerrr..huhu~~

on the brink~

when things get too suffocating

lets get a change of air~~

somehow studying at shopping complex is more productive than studying in my room..haha

post study sessionwe look too HAPPY to be exam going students..LOL

but lets all be done with & leave this college together k

and i ll look back at this poikilometry pic..and laugh^^

ganbarimass!!hwaitingg!!studyy!!

lazy weekend

lazy lazy weekend....

especially when it's raining this morning

it was sooo comfortable to sleep that i just slept pass the annoying fire alarm just like that

yes klu betol ada kebakaran
mmg habes hangus dah..hohoh

it has been a long time since i slept like this

damn tomorrow is Monday already~~

i wanna sleep summore

nway today is my lil sis bday

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOOchan
may u get all the BEST things in life^^

bright spots at the end of the week^^

1st & 2nd bright spots
finally..tandoori & butter nan night after a long time..oichikkkk^^
all thnx to that F1 driver..hahah

though it was not the same dinner without chibi-chan & maggie esp when today is mag's bday
for now...i guess a birthday wish would suffice..
so..
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY MAG!!
wishing u all the best in life!!!
*hugs & muahs*
lets get something oichik later k^^V

3rd bright spot
georgina will not be oncall tomorrow !!!!!
*throws confetties^^*
can sleep in tomorrow..yeayy~~

4th bright spot
thanx everyone for the lovely belated prezzie..love it lots*hugs*

5th bright spot
makan & masak cempedak goreng+sembang sembang+watch re runs of GBN sambil ketawa guling guling tengok pelakon tambahan..haha
lama betol x maen lepak lepak kt umah orang^^

at least this weekend x boring sangat time time hostel sunyi sepi^^
thnx tuan rumah & u allsss~

fat joke

at a blood donation campaign................

pakcik attendan sangka funny asked:- berapa berat badan?
girl dgn jujur & straight forward nyeh jawab:- 4*kg
pakcik attendan sangka funny dgn muka disbelief cakap:-yeke x nampak 4*kg pon...mcm 50 lebey je!!
girl dgn annoyed nyeh jawab:- yela saya baru timbang hari minggu baru nih...
annoyed girl thinks :- do i look fat?
pakcik attendan sangka funny dgn muka sangattt disbelief cakap lagi dgn annoying nyehh:-yeke..saya dh lama keje kt sini..saya tau laa..pegi timbang balik tgk...
girl dgn rasa insulted ngn pakcik cakap:- ye le meh tgk saya pegi timbang....

goes to weighing scale....

weighing scale reads-->4*kg

girl said:- kn saya dh cakapppppp!!!x nak caya lagi...
pakcik attendan sgka funny jokingly said:- oo bagos yehh...nampak besar tp sbnr nyeh ringan..ringan pahala ehhh..bagos la dari berat dosa...
girl dah irritated giler malas nk jawab thinks :- wateva la pakcik..sangka funny la tuhhhh~~

silence

pakcik sangka funny :- tahun brp nihh?
girl jawab dgn annoyed nyeh :- tahun akhir~~
pakcik sangka funny :- apsal x penah npk kt hospital
girl yg dh annoyed tuh pikir :- damn u pakcik u r messing with the wrong person at the wrong time *yeah she was tired & cranky*
so the annoyed girl jawab :- pakcik saya baru blk hospital pakcik...tau x skg pukul brp pakcik?? lepas nih saya kena pg blk tau..ishhh~~
annoyed girls thinks again :- plz laaa..aku yg terpacak kt hospital from 750am to 6pm and than pegi blk at 8pm-10pm cakap x pg hospitallll unlike some people i know...plz laaa..i wish i dont have to go to the freaking hospital like some people i know & study a bit for the finals...but somehow i always jadik mangsa keadaan...arghhhh *pulls hair*

stupid session with insensitive pakcik ends..moves on to next counter~~

the girl was emotionally & physically insulted
i m telling u it's the cause why girls are having eating disorders not that i have one..though i do think about it from time to time...in fact i m having benjo as a my supper..damn
now the poor girl believes she's super FAT!!
should she believe her friends anymore....
friends are after all friends...
they are supposed to be NICE to you..huhu

i m thinking i should go on a diet too~~

afterall i have 2 dugongs as thighs & of course other unnecessary appendages~~

damn you stomach always being hungry and making me eat!!!
damn u benjo i m eating right now

i will go on a diet....................someday
focus focus
i know i can do this!!
yes i can....................
someday~~

dirty money is poisonouss!!!

aku nampak muda rupanyehhh..haha

today is my youngest sister's registration day at UKM
can't believe how fast time flies...
she's already entering the University life..my lil kiddo boochan~~
*though with lack of enthusiasimn..haha*

and mama was saying the other day
by the time she graduates i ll be 29..mama why o why la you have to remind me?????

but how come everyone thinks alia & I are twins registering at UKM today..bwahahhahaa
and the 1st years & facillitators are actually making friendly conversations with us instead of boochan~~
i think lagi plek laa for alia since she is a senior at UKM..hahaha

ok.ok.better stop before some people gets jealous with my youthfullness..bwahhahhaha

weekends is toooo shortttt
i miss my family d now that i m back in Melaka

to that you..
thanx for giving me a ride in your BMW^^

to boochan if you are reading this...be safe k & stay genki~
gonna miss u *hugs*

to alia..take care of everyone at home esp mama since i m sure she'll have withdrawal syndromes for boochan~~

and lastly to them..CONGRATSS!!

never ending cases (T-T)

cases o cases..

when la will i ever finish it..adeh

dah la gonna meet up with my family later~~

and i still have time to blog..bwahahahhaha

cant help it laaa..

not that i've put Stand by U PV on repeat since yesterday staring at jaejoong over my work every now and than..huhuh

and my fav parts areeeeeeee....

p/s :- dearest jae i believe it too..yakusoku<3

me gedixxx...no wayyy..hahah

F thinks i m ovulating...
*i m NOT k!!*

cause i was fangirling over the nice MO of the ward i m in..whom i didn't see for 3 days ehh wait 5 days plus last weekends..bwahahahha

alaaa...just cause i only fangirl jaejoong this days..doesn't mean i don't have normal crush ..bwahahaha

i m soooo gonna miss that nice MOmedicine posting ^^

cases...hwaitinggg!!!

LOL

XD XD

work & play~

TRANSFORMERS II REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

AWESOME!!

no spoilers from me

too many pending works..adeh.adeh~~

p/s:-to u i was kinda mad at today..i m sorry

small world~

caution:- depressed mode~

i have no idea why i m even writing this @=@
so please feel free to skip
p/s nothing about the org minyak k..haha

i got my wish alright...
though not in the way i hoped it turned out to be~
My friends are actually starting their housemanship in the hospitals i m posted at..
yeay..i should think to myself
but noooooooo...of course it's never that way for me..
in fact it brought back not so fond memories

these friends are classmates when i was in Penang Matricualtion
and my class is not just any class laa since we have streaming system
H4p1 has students mostly of elite or nearly elite schools with good SPM results
and boasts of all the students having 4.0 in the 1st semester
the skema class..that was how i put it to my physical class friends..LOL

while my classmates go to the library to study and of course do some ehem extracuricular activities
i would be in my room happily dozing off or laughing it all out with my crazy roomates *adeh i miss them alredi*

while they sit at front rows in the lecture hall
i would be somewhere behind doodling my paper

while they would without fail do their tutorials each week
i would without fail copy my mrsm classmate aka my bestpal aka my matrix classmate aka lab partner also without fail..hahah *i know we came loooongg way back together..but i thank God i have her with me in my class..huhu*

while they have a million questions in their head to ask lecturers
i would stay quiet in class..rather minding my own business

while they would diligently go to class
i cut as many as i wanted..plus i was invisible remember~

my mentor loves them
me...invisible as usual..haha

so getting the same result as them
and of course getting a chance for the interview
some didn't think it's fair for a slob like me
in fact my mentor was also shocked or rather just noticed me
at one time i felt depressed because of it
cause i have prominent flaws compared to them~~

don't get me wrong
they are really nice people
i just...don't feel belong in that class??
in fact i hardly join any class activities..
i prefer joining my roomates class
i dunno laaa..

and today..
they actually recognize me when they saw me in the wards
i was..err blur?
see they are nice people who remembers their friends
even if that person is a lazy asocial slob who used to not wear glasses

i m happy with my class right now*not all but still mostly la*
cool friends and all
but why do i feel inadequate again after meeting them puzzles me
maybe cause they are already starting their careers
and i can totally see the semangat kira kira ness in them
as for me
i m stuck in this hell hole college with their stupid programs i don't even know how to explain to others about it...*WTH senior clerkship???* wondering if i m even gonna pass my final MBBS with the amout of rust in my brain~~
plus...where the hell is my semangat kira kira ness???

aaa..that is probably the inadequacy............

delusionally in love!!!

^________________________^

this is my silly BIG GRIN watching Mirotic tour

i finally found the cut version of my favourite part in DBSK 3rd asian Mirotic tour
thanx a lot to the wonderful people who uploaded it^^


once again
jae never fails to make me fall in love with him
again & again..kyaaa~~
can't wait to go to their seoul concert..huhu

no more boss^^

as of this second...

I M NO LONGER GROUP LEADER!!!!

*throws confetties*

no more being the responsible one*woot woot*
no more proxy-ing people who don't deserve it
no more facing people's crap wait.wait that might just still be the same
no more feeling guilty lying to doctors/lecturers *maybe just a bit..won't hurt*
no more calling lecturers on the phone
no more high phone bills*at least lower laa..huhu*
no more planning schedule for the group
no more answering sometimes kinda stupid questions
no more pretending & being hypocrite *though it's an essential skill to survive*
no more being blamed all the time

no way i m gonna miss all this!!!

I M FREAKING LOVING IT TO BE FREE!!!

i m back to my simple invisible lifestyle^^

although the next few postings are really frightening..gyaaa
time to get serious people..huhu
but right now i ll recuperate first~~

have a great weekend people^^V

sape termakan cili dia la terasa..

my groupmates and i have been together for almost 5 years now
so being together for that looonnggg duration
of course sometimes cakap pon cm mulut xde saman..oo well besa la tuh rite~~
it happened that one day i was teasing one of my groupmates about his attendance
and all of a sudden....
a small voice said "hey that's mean!!"

hey sape termakan cili dia la rasa pedas..ada paham kaa???

i m really trying my best to be nice to everyone
but everyone has a limit..
so please don't push it..i wish i could say this~

and being the most responsible one
is never my best trait
nor am i the best liar or suave
i can't even save my own a** even if life depended on it
much less other people...huhu

and God..guilty conscious is really bugging me right now..but so is the lazy bug..damn~~

i have to go to bed early again today
another unfinished chapter of my daily studies
another long day in Muar..oo yippie~