Black sheeps are not allowed here!!!

losing ones trust
is one of the worse things that could happen to you..........

i freaking hate you BLACK SHEEP!!!

because of you............

i m losing the trust people put in me

and made them disappointed of me

and i freaking hate you nurses too
who just couldn't record the names of people doing a procedure properly
don't get me wrong
i don't hate all of them
some nurses are simply NICE!!
it's just a few freaking stupid ones...arghhghghg~~~

it's a matter of time my new years resolution is gonna break~~~

i m lucky though
my senior h/o s are simply caring...
although they won't be reading this
and i hope no one from HSJ ever would....

sorry for making you guys worried
i ll definitely try my best!!

p/s :- i miss you darlings..lets do our best!!

the tagger

2 weeks tagging nearly done

but i m

still not confident with my VE

neither am i with ARM but somehow getting better i think..thank God~~

almost done with my 10 deliveries *1more to go*
i smell bloody almost everyday..damn

but still suck at sewing epi & tear..huhuhu

clerk & review cases faster

tp tulisan cakar ayam nak mampos sampai kena tegur specialist. =.=;

trying to be independent now that super nice houseman C changed department..huhuh

trying to get along with everyone

but some are plain B***** & D*****

have to be on specialist & MO good side

getting used to 36hours EOD

no day offs

and mandi air sejuk

trying to find time to eat , sleep & study

damn viva is in 4 days

i don't want to extand..huhuh

oo yeah did i mention at HSJ they extand people as simple as drinking tea especially in ONG, Paeds & Surgery..hurray~~

wish me luck ppl!!!
lets get through this.....

p/s :-miss everyone lots !!!!!!

36

i am 7 hours postcall for my 1st EOD which lasts for 36 hours

and

6 hours to another yet 36 hour EOD

yippie yupiie doodle dee~~

can't wait... *nada sarcastic*

that's ONG posting 2 tagging nightmare in HSJ for you
also not forgetting the scary looking specialist & scary end posting,mid posting & wateva other assessment

this days the "MY FEET ARE KILLING ME" syndrome is such a norm


without a doubt
i am in this syndrome too....><

but
this year
i m trying to stop/lessen my complainings

so i m gonna talk about the good things

like this....

the h/o s in ONG are nice
esp C , K , N , M
they thought me lots of stuff i feel very la the segan everytime i can't do it
it's really disappointing when someone tries really hard to help you
but u still cant do it

i guess that's what they get
after months of trying to urge mothers to do their best to deliver their babies
many times mothers are on the verge of giving up
and giving birth is no simple matter

so i guess it's the same in my position
they are not giving up until i learn
God i m so thankful to meet such ppl...

i have yet to meet other ppl in the department
hopefully everyone is just as nice

the MOs are scary though
asyik kena marah je..damn

okie before this entry turns into a rant
i ll just end it here
and hibernate.......................

until 5am tomorrow

hahah

oyasumik~

doki doki tomaranai..nya~~~

just got my induction letter 5 minutes ago...

and ooo-em-geeeeeeee i m sooo freaking out..huwaaaaaa

i m freaking scared about entering the ooo-so-BIG adult world
and the thought of being scolded by MO/specialist/consultants scares me like hell..huhu
*please please God let them be kind & patient to blurry me..aishh*

but the thought of earning my own money...*muka tamak* hopefully is a good enough motivation
though i do want to be a good & safe doctor..that is as long as i plan to practice..
haiyaaaa...i m having tachycardia already

k la malas nk pk dh...lg pk lg tachycardia
going to maen game or watch gundam or any other anime *while i still can*
eh jap kn carik baju kurung puteh kaen hitam plk..damn~
*btw maggggggggg if u are reading this my sister ckp miracle train crtr merepek..sob sob..*

so dear darlingssss & friends see u at induction..huhu
plz recognize me despite the amout of weight gain >< ;

till we meet again~~~

p/s :- for the LAST time...i m NOT a nurse!!!!! grrrrrr....

-end-

love letters to u

a love letter specially for my darlings cause i miss you all~~~

*yucks tiba-tiba jiwang plk*

packing

never thought packing would be so hard
i stayed up the whole night
folding clothes that was never ending
i wonder how it mountain up to this much..huhu
even with the huge bag
all my clothes cannot be fit in
packing my books
was no easier
no matter how i put it into boxes
there are still more on my table,shelf,drawers
i m more than positive now those books multiply itself *gyahhh*
and the books weigh tonnes too T.T
there goes all the money for postals..huhu
all other stuff
can i just leave it here
i m going crazy already
mama please come quick

on side note :
packing makes me sad especially when i have to go back early...i can't spend more time with my friends..i m so gonna miss them~
gonna miss my room lots too..goodbye ac room & hot water

our happy ending^^

ALHAMDULILLAH

WE ARE NOW DOCTORS!!!

CONGRATULATIONS BATCH 15

WE DID IT^^

to my beloved V.IP.s
thanx for everything
thanx for always being there for me through all the laughter & cries
life would be soooo unbearable without you gals*hugs*
definitely gonna miss u all*sob sob*

to my friends
you guys are definitely the best bunch of friends i've met so far
thanking the Allmighty for that

to my partner & jiran of 5 years
although both of you are always missing
you guys totally make up for it
by making me laugh
and being there at least when i really need your help

to my groupmates
though there were many dramas
we did have some fun rite..
haha

to my batchmates
i m really proud of being part of this strong batch
congratulations again doctors of batch 15
we did it^^

gonna pack up all my things now
my parents are coming tomorrow
sure gonna miss all my friends
love u all lots
thanx so much for everything
sorry for anything i did wrong
friends forever~~

sorry

exam result is not out yet
probably tomorrow..
the anxiety is killing me
but there is also something else that is bugging me this days
saying goodbyes~
i was never good at saying good byes
because i hate crying
most of the time
i live things hanging just like that........
if there is a chance
we will meet again
that's what i want to believe...
so when i couldn't make it to gatherings
it's not that i don't want to
there is a lot things that i/we are going through/on my mind
but i m willing to bet that there would be more than enough people to fill in my small empty spot~
the gathering would still be a happy one
so friend if today is the last time i see you
i m really sorry for making you mad...
but please know that you do have a special place in my heart
it's going to be very hard to forget you..especially you being someone eccentric in my life..lol
so please forgive me
and thanx for everything
till we meet again?

yeah i am scared

my future is gonna be decided on friday

i m freaking scared

i just hope Allah lets me pass..

a happy ending..i hope

FINALLY FREAKING DONE WITH FINALS MBBS!!!!

and i sure hope

that this will be the last

cause i m freaking tired of this crap...

plz plz GOD lemme & my freinds pass!! amin~

sure working as a houseofficer isn't all beds of roses cause it does have thorns too

but at least.............

i will get paid

XD XD

haiyaaa...klua suda sifat mata duetan materialistika..LOL

whatever la as long as i get out of this freaking college..

though i will definitely miss my IMPORTANTS!!!

speaking of which....

it's CHIBI-chan's b-day today

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY DEAR!!
wishing u all the best things in life again this year *hugs*

tipah tertipu..lol

a stupid story my sister told me in an attempt to make me laugh...

A : i have a friend yg agak lembut
Me : okie..soo
A : ada a fren of dia tgk facebook pics dia..pastuh npk ada gmbr sorg girl cun
Me : don't tell me it's him
A : his fren tny la sape nih..ur awek ke? kiut la
Me : pastuh?
A : the lembut guy blush..
Me : ..........*was thinking confirm that lembut guy*
A : he said it's him..he used photoshop to make his hair long & make up
Me : ooooookie~~~~

i didn't laugh
but
thnx for trying
XD XD

moral of the story :-
don't judge a book by it's cover??
LOL

quoting a classmates fb status:
"... intrigued by ppl's photogenicity....good looking photos are extremely deceiving...sum gurls look great in photos but in reality, i'd rather stare at the sun... The magic of the camera and hours of posing.... "

happy belated birthday mama

been stressing a lot yesterday
too many breakdowns to count
that i totally forgot my mama's bday
until this morning...

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY MAMA!!
MAY ALLAH BLESS U WITH ALL THE HAPPINESS IN LIFE & GOOD HEALTH!!
you deserve all the best things in life
for bringing me,kak,abang,alia & ayu into this world
for guiding us to be the people that we are now
for encouraging us
for always being there for us
for all those prayers u made for us
for your most wonderful oiishi food
and all other things that u do that makes us the best of what we are
love u lotssss mama!!

earthquake+heartquake

long case done..
3 shortcases next

dunno what to say
but..
it was as bad as the earthquake i felt today

i was literally swaying on the bed...
thought at first that i was either going crazy or there was a ghost in mag's room..haha
until i asked hana
"hana nape aku rasa bed nih gerak"
we screamed..LOL

what a way to experience exam day~

nway thnx hana & mag for trying to cheer me up
all the best to all^^

hope we will all make it through~

mintak mak kueh sepotong..lalalalala...

practice history taking/shortcase/examination sessions with my friends ends for this week
cause i m going back for raya tonight..yeay!!^^
though the raya spirit is lacking this year because i m freaking scared of the final exams
i was soooooo freaking scared at one point that i was thinking of not going back for raya
and bug all the patients to let me practice & sharpen my skills *kiasu giler*
but all is loss at the thought of beloved family & mom's rendang..huhu~ ^^;
can't wait...ITADAKIMASUU!!

on another note especially to friends i see on daily basis currently...
if i ever do forget/don't recognize you in the future please feel free to knock my head or if you are nice please forgive me whatever laa you can decide
cause i think i m suffering from early onset dementia
why?
because yet again i don't recognize those people i used to know* i think i used to know laaa* in school/matrix...
they are now h/o in the hospitals where i go to bug the patients
and they somehow recognize me even after yearssss..*super amazed*
while i had to rack my brain over to remember where i had met them & what are their names..arghhh~
thank GOd for name tags!!!!
although i had to pretend i rmmbr as to not offend them *they were super nice to recommend patients with good findings* until i get a peek at their name tags..hhuhu~ *plz forgive me*

anyway today is Mun's Birthday
if you are reading this...
HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY!!!!



all the best to you!!!
thanx to u & nurul i learned a LOT during our practice sessions^^
hope we'll make it through this finals..huhu

almost time to break fast
in a few hours i ll be on the bus home
before i end..
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN TO ALL!!!
LOVE U ALL LOTS...MUAXxX!!

till we meet again..
have lots of fun at home,study & grow fat..haha
ciao peeps~

again & again...

at times when i get frustrated with all the dicks, balls & anal-gesia

who laaa readsss carcinoma of penis or undescended testis...damn i don't even see them at the hospitals
once again i got hooked on to another fandom
yeehaaaa...
helloooooooo 2pm!!!the songs currently being replayed over and over again on my playlist
the utube videos i stalk until 4a.m *oo yeah i m the joker..LOL*
the music i keep hearing in my head while answering MCQ
the cool performance i see on the stage of the exam hall instead of damn Prof. R yapping in front
the ones we fangirl right now^^
the reason we joined damn competitions to get tickets cause i m officially broke
the cause of my impatience -->wanting to go back to my room stat!
*nk tgk 2pm!!!*
oo yeah i can so see the bad prognosis
definitely 10 out of 10
hahaha..

last paper tomorrow
than i m off
back home sweet home
eating free yummy mama cooked food^^
i know la benda nih like benda biasa jeee to some of you
but plz excuse this person for being overly excited to go home
cause it just have been too long~~
just hope studying for finals will be more productive at home..huhu

lets do our best for finals k!!!

despite all the dicks balls and anals we got for sessionals..haha

until than~~

racing like crazy against time...huwawa

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN!!

before cinderella internet gets crazy and die at 1230am
if it's still deciding to be cinderella laa
i ll just write a quickie & get back to work
i just want to say...
that i m really really sorry that i ve been missing on eating meals together,fangirling,disappearing from YM/facebook ,hardly see/talk to my dear neighbours and watever what not....
basicly being asocial XD XD
i promise i will be out of my cave as soon as i m back on track or until the sessionals ends or until i get blind from all the reading..damn i totally thought yesterday was tuesday not wedenesday..and now i m 1 day +++ behind schedule...great great great..i m officially getting loco..huhu

so for now..please bear with me k..hhuhu

you know i love u all

xoxo

sleepy kumako~~

last??lets hope it stays that way

last day of posting!!!!

no specific fond memories

just like boring everyday postings..except lazier XD XD

finally after 5 loooooooong years..

ehh jap keje nnt still ada postings right *damn*

well lets just hope this is the last day we are posted at hospital as Manipol student..
*cross fingers!!!*

now all i have to do is concentrate on sessionals

10 days 9 subjects to studyy..yeay~~

nways.."HAPPY" STUDYING EVERYONE!!

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another this time really happy note:-

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ALIA & ABANG ^^
may both of you be blessed with all the happiness in life

*HUGS*

so what?

so what if you are confident with your public speaking
so what if you receive praises for your traditional dance
so what if you straighten your curly hair
so what if you only want to hang out with so called cool people
so what if we are not friends

being in the same group
shouldnt you have the decency to know your temporary groupmate's name
& not refer her as the girl at the front
you may not like her in the first place
giving her the look like you are better than her anywhere/everywhere possible

you are NOT that great
you are NOT always right

please dont be full of youself!!

deja vu

harry potter & 1/2 blood prince

once again i ll just say..

the book is always better than the movie

but knowing that

i still watch it in the cinema XD XD

a lil quickie on the movie..more like the main characters

i still don't think the guy who plays harry potter can act

hermione is reallllllly pretty...she has good skin XD XD

ron has well developed biceps & triceps @=@

i like the girl who plays luna~~ she's exactly how i thought she'll be..bravo

ginny is tall

draco malfoy is not cute anymore..LOL

and i m not ghei..haha

it's not the usual HP movie watching tradition without boss
but get well soon boss^^

post lamp post *lol oyaji gag*

soooo...

in the end i decided la jadik lamp post
plz refer post kt bawah
* yer demi attendance bodo tuhh..naseb baek dpt houseofficer baek tolong suka suki cop kertas..XDXD*

lol

x tau nk kata pe

awkward kot..

i m just thankful i just had to stay for 1 hour ++ ...hohoho

x pasal2 secara medical term nyeh jadik antigen/foreign body

atau dgn layman term nyeh tiang lampu/penonton drama melayu/mangsa keadaan
*yeshhh d heroine of this drama sacrifice me to be the co pilot sbb apparently cm ada avoidance yg selama nih i m not aware of..dont blame me..i mmg blur bnd2 nih...though i m glad i have the blurness during this times..haha*

dh laaa xde orang beranak
xde orang yg nk kena buat VE
seb baek la dr D decided to buat class on normal labour & CTG time tuh..pe lagi i join laa

so moral of the story
don't get MIA partner *somehow slalu dpt partner cmnih..adeh adeh*
klu nk jadik lamp post sila tebal kan muka & activate blur mode to the MAXXX!!

p/s:-boss telah bagi title queen of awkwardness to me..sankyuuu...i love u boss!!

dah dah..baek aku makan burger ayam special nih dari continue mopping around..lapar suda..oichik~

note:- jgn tertipu..nih bukan burger ayam special gazebo...tp lebey kurang laaa nih..byk isi~

than

oyasumik ppl~