the question

to be the tiang lampu

or

NOT

to be the tiang lampu

that is the question

x guna ko partnerrr..huhu~~

on the brink~

when things get too suffocating

lets get a change of air~~

somehow studying at shopping complex is more productive than studying in my room..haha

post study sessionwe look too HAPPY to be exam going students..LOL

but lets all be done with & leave this college together k

and i ll look back at this poikilometry pic..and laugh^^

ganbarimass!!hwaitingg!!studyy!!

lazy weekend

lazy lazy weekend....

especially when it's raining this morning

it was sooo comfortable to sleep that i just slept pass the annoying fire alarm just like that

yes klu betol ada kebakaran
mmg habes hangus dah..hohoh

it has been a long time since i slept like this

damn tomorrow is Monday already~~

i wanna sleep summore

nway today is my lil sis bday

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOOchan
may u get all the BEST things in life^^

bright spots at the end of the week^^

1st & 2nd bright spots
finally..tandoori & butter nan night after a long time..oichikkkk^^
all thnx to that F1 driver..hahah

though it was not the same dinner without chibi-chan & maggie esp when today is mag's bday
for now...i guess a birthday wish would suffice..
so..
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY MAG!!
wishing u all the best in life!!!
*hugs & muahs*
lets get something oichik later k^^V

3rd bright spot
georgina will not be oncall tomorrow !!!!!
*throws confetties^^*
can sleep in tomorrow..yeayy~~

4th bright spot
thanx everyone for the lovely belated prezzie..love it lots*hugs*

5th bright spot
makan & masak cempedak goreng+sembang sembang+watch re runs of GBN sambil ketawa guling guling tengok pelakon tambahan..haha
lama betol x maen lepak lepak kt umah orang^^

at least this weekend x boring sangat time time hostel sunyi sepi^^
thnx tuan rumah & u allsss~

fat joke

at a blood donation campaign................

pakcik attendan sangka funny asked:- berapa berat badan?
girl dgn jujur & straight forward nyeh jawab:- 4*kg
pakcik attendan sangka funny dgn muka disbelief cakap:-yeke x nampak 4*kg pon...mcm 50 lebey je!!
girl dgn annoyed nyeh jawab:- yela saya baru timbang hari minggu baru nih...
annoyed girl thinks :- do i look fat?
pakcik attendan sangka funny dgn muka sangattt disbelief cakap lagi dgn annoying nyehh:-yeke..saya dh lama keje kt sini..saya tau laa..pegi timbang balik tgk...
girl dgn rasa insulted ngn pakcik cakap:- ye le meh tgk saya pegi timbang....

goes to weighing scale....

weighing scale reads-->4*kg

girl said:- kn saya dh cakapppppp!!!x nak caya lagi...
pakcik attendan sgka funny jokingly said:- oo bagos yehh...nampak besar tp sbnr nyeh ringan..ringan pahala ehhh..bagos la dari berat dosa...
girl dah irritated giler malas nk jawab thinks :- wateva la pakcik..sangka funny la tuhhhh~~

silence

pakcik sangka funny :- tahun brp nihh?
girl jawab dgn annoyed nyeh :- tahun akhir~~
pakcik sangka funny :- apsal x penah npk kt hospital
girl yg dh annoyed tuh pikir :- damn u pakcik u r messing with the wrong person at the wrong time *yeah she was tired & cranky*
so the annoyed girl jawab :- pakcik saya baru blk hospital pakcik...tau x skg pukul brp pakcik?? lepas nih saya kena pg blk tau..ishhh~~
annoyed girls thinks again :- plz laaa..aku yg terpacak kt hospital from 750am to 6pm and than pegi blk at 8pm-10pm cakap x pg hospitallll unlike some people i know...plz laaa..i wish i dont have to go to the freaking hospital like some people i know & study a bit for the finals...but somehow i always jadik mangsa keadaan...arghhhh *pulls hair*

stupid session with insensitive pakcik ends..moves on to next counter~~

the girl was emotionally & physically insulted
i m telling u it's the cause why girls are having eating disorders not that i have one..though i do think about it from time to time...in fact i m having benjo as a my supper..damn
now the poor girl believes she's super FAT!!
should she believe her friends anymore....
friends are after all friends...
they are supposed to be NICE to you..huhu

i m thinking i should go on a diet too~~

afterall i have 2 dugongs as thighs & of course other unnecessary appendages~~

damn you stomach always being hungry and making me eat!!!
damn u benjo i m eating right now

i will go on a diet....................someday
focus focus
i know i can do this!!
yes i can....................
someday~~

dirty money is poisonouss!!!

aku nampak muda rupanyehhh..haha

today is my youngest sister's registration day at UKM
can't believe how fast time flies...
she's already entering the University life..my lil kiddo boochan~~
*though with lack of enthusiasimn..haha*

and mama was saying the other day
by the time she graduates i ll be 29..mama why o why la you have to remind me?????

but how come everyone thinks alia & I are twins registering at UKM today..bwahahhahaa
and the 1st years & facillitators are actually making friendly conversations with us instead of boochan~~
i think lagi plek laa for alia since she is a senior at UKM..hahaha

ok.ok.better stop before some people gets jealous with my youthfullness..bwahhahhaha

weekends is toooo shortttt
i miss my family d now that i m back in Melaka

to that you..
thanx for giving me a ride in your BMW^^

to boochan if you are reading this...be safe k & stay genki~
gonna miss u *hugs*

to alia..take care of everyone at home esp mama since i m sure she'll have withdrawal syndromes for boochan~~

and lastly to them..CONGRATSS!!

never ending cases (T-T)

cases o cases..

when la will i ever finish it..adeh

dah la gonna meet up with my family later~~

and i still have time to blog..bwahahahhaha

cant help it laaa..

not that i've put Stand by U PV on repeat since yesterday staring at jaejoong over my work every now and than..huhuh

and my fav parts areeeeeeee....

p/s :- dearest jae i believe it too..yakusoku<3

me gedixxx...no wayyy..hahah

F thinks i m ovulating...
*i m NOT k!!*

cause i was fangirling over the nice MO of the ward i m in..whom i didn't see for 3 days ehh wait 5 days plus last weekends..bwahahahha

alaaa...just cause i only fangirl jaejoong this days..doesn't mean i don't have normal crush ..bwahahaha

i m soooo gonna miss that nice MOmedicine posting ^^

cases...hwaitinggg!!!

LOL

XD XD

work & play~

TRANSFORMERS II REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

AWESOME!!

no spoilers from me

too many pending works..adeh.adeh~~

p/s:-to u i was kinda mad at today..i m sorry

small world~

caution:- depressed mode~

i have no idea why i m even writing this @=@
so please feel free to skip
p/s nothing about the org minyak k..haha

i got my wish alright...
though not in the way i hoped it turned out to be~
My friends are actually starting their housemanship in the hospitals i m posted at..
yeay..i should think to myself
but noooooooo...of course it's never that way for me..
in fact it brought back not so fond memories

these friends are classmates when i was in Penang Matricualtion
and my class is not just any class laa since we have streaming system
H4p1 has students mostly of elite or nearly elite schools with good SPM results
and boasts of all the students having 4.0 in the 1st semester
the skema class..that was how i put it to my physical class friends..LOL

while my classmates go to the library to study and of course do some ehem extracuricular activities
i would be in my room happily dozing off or laughing it all out with my crazy roomates *adeh i miss them alredi*

while they sit at front rows in the lecture hall
i would be somewhere behind doodling my paper

while they would without fail do their tutorials each week
i would without fail copy my mrsm classmate aka my bestpal aka my matrix classmate aka lab partner also without fail..hahah *i know we came loooongg way back together..but i thank God i have her with me in my class..huhu*

while they have a million questions in their head to ask lecturers
i would stay quiet in class..rather minding my own business

while they would diligently go to class
i cut as many as i wanted..plus i was invisible remember~

my mentor loves them
me...invisible as usual..haha

so getting the same result as them
and of course getting a chance for the interview
some didn't think it's fair for a slob like me
in fact my mentor was also shocked or rather just noticed me
at one time i felt depressed because of it
cause i have prominent flaws compared to them~~

don't get me wrong
they are really nice people
i just...don't feel belong in that class??
in fact i hardly join any class activities..
i prefer joining my roomates class
i dunno laaa..

and today..
they actually recognize me when they saw me in the wards
i was..err blur?
see they are nice people who remembers their friends
even if that person is a lazy asocial slob who used to not wear glasses

i m happy with my class right now*not all but still mostly la*
cool friends and all
but why do i feel inadequate again after meeting them puzzles me
maybe cause they are already starting their careers
and i can totally see the semangat kira kira ness in them
as for me
i m stuck in this hell hole college with their stupid programs i don't even know how to explain to others about it...*WTH senior clerkship???* wondering if i m even gonna pass my final MBBS with the amout of rust in my brain~~
plus...where the hell is my semangat kira kira ness???

aaa..that is probably the inadequacy............

delusionally in love!!!

^________________________^

this is my silly BIG GRIN watching Mirotic tour

i finally found the cut version of my favourite part in DBSK 3rd asian Mirotic tour
thanx a lot to the wonderful people who uploaded it^^


once again
jae never fails to make me fall in love with him
again & again..kyaaa~~
can't wait to go to their seoul concert..huhu

no more boss^^

as of this second...

I M NO LONGER GROUP LEADER!!!!

*throws confetties*

no more being the responsible one*woot woot*
no more proxy-ing people who don't deserve it
no more facing people's crap wait.wait that might just still be the same
no more feeling guilty lying to doctors/lecturers *maybe just a bit..won't hurt*
no more calling lecturers on the phone
no more high phone bills*at least lower laa..huhu*
no more planning schedule for the group
no more answering sometimes kinda stupid questions
no more pretending & being hypocrite *though it's an essential skill to survive*
no more being blamed all the time

no way i m gonna miss all this!!!

I M FREAKING LOVING IT TO BE FREE!!!

i m back to my simple invisible lifestyle^^

although the next few postings are really frightening..gyaaa
time to get serious people..huhu
but right now i ll recuperate first~~

have a great weekend people^^V

sape termakan cili dia la terasa..

my groupmates and i have been together for almost 5 years now
so being together for that looonnggg duration
of course sometimes cakap pon cm mulut xde saman..oo well besa la tuh rite~~
it happened that one day i was teasing one of my groupmates about his attendance
and all of a sudden....
a small voice said "hey that's mean!!"

hey sape termakan cili dia la rasa pedas..ada paham kaa???

i m really trying my best to be nice to everyone
but everyone has a limit..
so please don't push it..i wish i could say this~

and being the most responsible one
is never my best trait
nor am i the best liar or suave
i can't even save my own a** even if life depended on it
much less other people...huhu

and God..guilty conscious is really bugging me right now..but so is the lazy bug..damn~~

i have to go to bed early again today
another unfinished chapter of my daily studies
another long day in Muar..oo yippie~

sleeping is the best medicine

It was raining just now

perfect for sleeping~~

nuff said..

I LOVE SLEEPING!!!

RAWRRRR!!!

i was super sleepy & hungry today

hear me ROAR!!!

p/s :- sorry to everyone involved~

only fools rush in

i m telling ALL of you...

volunteering yourself to present a case to a SCARY lecturer

you would either be..

TOO confident & brave

or

a self destructing IDIOT!!

and to put yourself in that position like soooo many times...

i would have to say is a BAD prognosis!!

even cats have 9 lives...

i m telling you guys who sit quietly pretending like it's nothing of your concern....

that is the most ingenious act to be done..haha

however sorry to say..that doesn't give you the right to say it's okay only today~~

cause it's NOT!!

NOT when you're just sitting, watching the idiotic self destructing person get shot down..bullet after bullet...definitely NOT hokay~

so friends...

please be smart~

like they say--> silence is golden..haha

when there is a will there is a way..so they say~

activity daily living status-->DEPENDANT on weekdays and certain weekends...

haishhhh~~~
i HATE to be dependant on other people
but it makes me wonder why i don't even bother having my own car here in college...
though i do know i m a lazy ass
and hate driving in the extremely hottt sun as much as i hate being dependant~
LOL
thats that...
and because of this
i have to bend to other ppl's schedule
get ripped by MElaka taxi drivers...
*pls la pakcik we are NOT stupid...we know you guys are liying about the fee just cause we go to a private college...come on la even in K.L it's cheaper..and the cost of living is higher too..well it's your sin for liying to students..damn*
waste time waiting for bus *although i dont really mind if it's with "them"*
walk long distance to pasar malam...*this also don't really mind cause i'll get exercise for my osteoporotic prone bones..hahah*
well the list can go on and on...
but everything is just FINE if you are with a bunch of crazy fun people who are on the same boat with you..hehe
it makes our college life more special from others??
that sometimes ppl just dont understand how we do it..hahha
the simple answer to that is we have too much fun together we forget those which other ppl think is a hassle or problem~~~

though i maybe dependant in times in need
i definitely do NOT all the time
so i would appreciate it that people don't think i m taking advantage of my friends
cause i don't...
and as much as possible...i WON'T!!
not until i know i m worthy of it..

i still have my 2 own feets
and will very well make use of them
as much as i can

but

of course i won't be able to..without my GREAT supports^^
*please take note:-this entry is not intended to offend anyone in anyway..it's just me..haha~~

just cause everyone decided to change their template~~

i usually avoid sappy sad love stories...

especially if i have to watch ALONE!!!!

but the jobless me during the weekend finally decided i should watch koizora the moviethe end result of me...
was pretty pathetic...damn~~

note to self--> NEVER watch sappy sad love stories ALONE!!!
*like la being in this damn senior clerkship is not sad enough..haiyaaa*

oo yeah
as if it's NOt enough
here's another sappy sad love MV

the plus point is i LOVE jae's voice^^

patut la katak suka dok bawah tempurung

please note that whatever this senior clerkship is supposed to do

for me....

it's definitely working in ONE way

that is...

separating me & my peeps

i hardly see anyone other than my groupmates anymore

damn you college for taking away my comfort pillow!!!! *and of course literally--> taking away my sleep time*

if this is how things are going to be in the real world

i hate it already

i m crossing my fingers to at least get to practice in my hometown of comfort zone..hoho~

oo wait

i have to pass my exams first

damn u college!!!!

p/s :- i m still alive..i m just being childish & bratty todayyyy~~~

*totally random post......plz excuse me*